contentment

today was interesting, as I would randomly realize I was content out of the blue. A lot's been on my mind lately, personally and with work, which kind of makes me preoccupied all day, as I tend to think about it and try to figure out what's going on or what to do. Stuff tends to cloud my mind also when I'm tired, and I was very tired today, as I haven't gotten much sleep in the last few days. But all of a sudden I would realize I had a very full and content feeling, which was neat. One was when I was in the pool at my friend's house, just sitting there doing nothing, having fun sitting in the water and enjoying the people sitting around me. (and I realize I need to get to the pool more, that's one of the things I really miss from being a kid! We used to go to the pool every night in the summer - it was great :) Then I went to church to help in the nursery with VBS. I had signed up a while ago, and didn't really want to do it today after all, as I was super tired, and preoccupied with what I have to do tomorrow. I really didn't have much energy to play with a bunch of kids! But my friend's daughter Ann was kind of fussy, since she wasn't feeling well. So I just fed her crackers, and then we just sat on the couch as she laid against my chest, and I rubbed her back for most of the time. And I found myself really content, sitting there with her fitting perfectly in my lap, with the fan blowing on us, just taking it easy since we both had a rough day. And I was being useful, just sitting there holding her. And I felt content and full and happy, and wishing I could just hold her more often. I love her Ann and her sisters so much, and they aren't even my own kids. It's going to be so amazing to be able to just sit and hold and enjoy my own daughter someday. It's so amazing how God makes little kids so cute and with such ability to trust and love and be loved. Well, I'm going to sign off now, as I have to get up early tomorrow, and I need sleep!