it's 10:23 pm

Not that that is relevant, I just couldn't think of a better title! I'm amazingly content this evening, though I didn't get my "alone" time that I usually need today. It was a day where not much got done at all, but I didn't feel bad about it either. Perhaps since the holidays are coming up and I know I get a real rest before I gear up again. Or maybe it's something else, I don't know. I had a long conversation with one of my committee members today about my project. He wanted me to bring my seminar and go over each slide with him. And it was interesting - the whole time I was talking to him, I just felt this real contentment and this peace. Have you ever been so at rest or so at peace that it was almost tangible? Like you wanted to pick it out of the air and hold it close to you, basking in the enjoyment. Like the smell of cinnamon apple tea and the feel of the warm cup in your hand. Or like taking a nap or reading a good book curled up on the couch on an overcast day. It was so nice to feel that way. And he asked the most interesting questions -they were questions I should have known - if I reached way back into the far recesses of my mind - but strangely enough, I really want to go look them up now. And then I got the vegetables and came home and enjoyed a really good salad and then nachos from Taco Bell. After that, I went to Walmart with a friend who can't drive and doesn't get out much. And that contentment and peace just followed me all through the evening. And it's still here now, and still tangible. For the first time this week, I'm not going to go to bed because I'm bored! It's nice knowing that this evening somehow, someway, meant something, and wasn't just wasted and spent on myself. So now I'm going to sign off and go to bed, and may this peace follow me through the starry dust of my dreams and as I wake up tomorrow.