Update

So it's been a while. Funny thing is, as I was reading back through things today, I realized tha I need to hear the exact same things I was thinking about in the last few posts.

I've also been thinking about how the last month or so, or really the last week or so has been really hard. And I've been really frustrated with God for different reasons. Yet in thinking about what I wrote, or events that have happened over the last year or so since I started the blog, I realize that things that were hard then turned out ok in the end. Or at least they've turned out okay thusfar.

I've also been thinking a lot lately about Hind's Feet on High Places, and how I'm like Much-Afraid sometimes. She gets to a point where she has to make a choice to follow the Shepherd no matter what. She has to get to the point where she will trust and follow him even if he were to deceive her.

"Would you be willing to trust me," he asked, "even if everything in the wide world seemed to say that I was deceiving you -- indeed, that I had deceived you all along?"

"My Lord -- if you can deceive me, you may. It can make no difference. I must love you as long as I continue to exist. I cannot live without loving you."